PAINFUL BUT SATISFYING NEW BEGINNINGS

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that kid
- 6/21/2015 10:53am

I made a mistake.

Bear with me, it was an honest mistake, my snapdragons did warn me about it, but they warn me about a lot of things. They've recently died and have been brooding, which makes for gloomy conversation, and they think they can act all angsty and gothic because the seedpods resemble skulls, and not to be rude but their poetry sucks... If any of you can access the efflorescent plane do not tell them I said that.

But okay okay, I'm rambling because this place is making my skin crawl, literally. Aren't we supposed to teach bugs manners? Because no one has seemed to intervene with this bunch, they're barbaric. GAH. Okay, I teleported, because this is the only place I've ever wanted to be, but I've never really been away from home, my room-mates have always expressed their doubts about this place. I could feel myself being drawn away, and I'd rather teleport voluntarily, or something might get left behind (or gained, if I'm not concentrating the information might get muddled and duplicate another body part, I worry that I'd have to learn to walk with another leg which would make me look awkward and incompetent, how would I make any new friends?) Not that it matters now. I focussed really hard, I even let my astral buddies join with me to give extra concentration, but no... I'm in the school, I know that. But it's dark, and cramped, and... Loud. It's like a buzzing deep inside me, where my organs would be, (that's another story) and it's messing with my head, I can hardly feel my (former) room-mates presence anymore. I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE IT. I NEEDED PRACTICE. I'm sure I'm trapped between some kind of foundations, or some kind of boarded up closet, or...? I don't know where I am, but something very strange is happening close by, maybe an experiment or... and it.... SORRY... it hurts a lot. I really feel like I'm going crazy.





that kid
- 6/21/2015 11:52am

---------------It's all worked out haha! I uh... heh... can't feel the buzzing anymore. Yes! No. Although, I might have absorbed it. I feel full of a very hah, energy? Vivacity? My mind (my... mind?) is going crazy. You see, I may be trapped within these cold, HEARTLESS (I'm sorry, they're getting to me) INTOLERABLE stone foundations, but heh, even though I can't seem to focus my mind on teleportation in particular, it's like I've unlocked a whole new (NEW!) spectrum of psychedelic potential! Coming here was a hah! fantastic idea! My former room-mates keep trying to get through to me on our plane but I'd not really ready for that yet. What I am excited about! of course! Though I am trapped (have I said that?) I can push my physical body into a (weak, so far) ghost-like projection, and I've managed to escape, at least spiritually, my stone confinement! Hah! I can even, If I concentrate really hard-------------------------------project environments and objects into the space in my mind (Like I'm, heh, sitting in a room of my own design) so I have accommodation now! I can visit, hah, the whole school from my own little paradise! I can (Yes!) base my learnings from here! I would be worried about food (sweet, delicious... GAH! sorry!) but this buzzing energy seems to have affected me. I can't feel my body anymore. I think I will grow to miss hunger. I can still feel uh, hah, the bugs however, crawling on me... Without a physical body, supposedly, they're... hah.... it seems, crawling on the strands of my mind... it feels... ANYWAY! I hope to meet some new, hah, people, familiars, androids, whatever you happen to be (I don't ah, discriminate!) if you see a flickering projection trying to approach you (I don't bite! Well, I can't, I have no physical, hah, form!) introduce yourself and your classmates! I'd be happy to heh, socialize!

The buzzing is clouding me. I'll have to------------

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